All posts filed under: Rants & Vents

Random encounter on the train

A few days ago I found myself sitting in the train after a series of events that had my brain all over the place. And even as I’m writing this, I’m still confused as to what had happened but I hope to get some clarity and maybe even be able to share my writings about it. But as I usually do when my brain is all over the place, I journal about it. And it had happened to be the first page of my new journal. I was so thrilled to share my experiences in this new journal, I shared it on my IG as well. Made a little boomerang, y’know. Anyway, I put down the date and start writing the date and the first two sentences of which the last one was literally “What the fuck?”, when an elderly lady asked if she could sit next to me as I had my bag on the seat next to me so I could write on the little desk from the seat in front of me. …

Hello Only me October, goodbye Stormy September

You think we’d learn our lesson whenever we say: oh, it can’t get any worse. We all know the Universe will show you that it can. And that’s exactly what September was for me. Despite it being my birthday month, it was fucking hell. Well, I guess hell would be stormy. And normally, I thrive through chaos. Because that’s just what I do. But this…Nah. We’ve had break ups and breakdowns, turn ups and hook ups, and many firsts. Anyway! It’s October now! The trees are shedding their leaves and I’m taking a page of their book by shedding my leaves as well. What does that mean? It means, I’m ready to drop habits that are not in alignment with the version I’m working on becoming to make room for new healthy habits, which I’ll share more about in another post. It’s time to focus on me. I have been very di(ck)stracted, while others have been focusing on them. Which is a pattern that needs to be broken. Especially, now that I’m newly single after …

I’m back! After 2 whole years…

Google, play “It’s about damn time”, by Lizzo because I’m back, baby! After 2 whole years. That’s right. We are gonna give it another shot. Filled with new experiences, dreams and a whole lotta anxiety. But we’re gonna do it anyway. So, what have I been up to? In all honesty, I’ve been up to whole lot and yet at the same time a whole lot of nothing. How does that work? You ask. Well, I can honestly say that I’ve experienced a lot and I was very busy. Because when the world shut down in 2020, it was exactly at that moment that I started my new job. And baby… It was a roller coaster from then on. I will not go into full detail about it, but a lot occurred after one another. Great things and just things that still give me full on panic attacks. Yet, a lot of the things that I experienced the past 2 years were not in alignment with my authentic self nor who I aspire to become. …

Oh, so The Little Mermaid got you pressed?

Whew! After years we are finally getting a black Disney princess in a live-action movie and it seems like a big part of the world is pressed. In case you missed it, Halle Bailey -not to be confused with Halle Berry- has been cast as Ariel for the live action movie The Little Mermaid. When I saw the news, my little Joey started dancing in circles. Even tho The Little Mermaid was one of the last Disney movies I got to see, the mermaid feeling was real. And now, somebody is realizing the dreams many of us had as little girls. All princesses I got to see when growing up were white except Jasmine. When Pocahontas came along, she instantly became my favorite until I grew up and got to hear the real story. Childhood ruined. Then we got Esmeralda, but she wasn’t much of a princess. And then finallyyyyyyyy, we got princess Tiana. By the time she came along, I was already believing that girls like me could never be a Disney princess. The …

Sunday Reflecting: live in the present

On Sunday’s my mother after my mom went to church, we’d cruise around to wherever. Yeah, we would literally just get in the car and drive to certain towns. Admiring the houses, talk about what it’d look like from the inside, look at some poor choices of gardening. But most importantly, it allowed me to dream. Oh, how I would dream.  Life didn’t turn out that way, tho. Now, you might think this has me absolutely depressed, because clearly my life isn’t as I had dreamed it would be. But I’m not, at least not anymore. Which is exactly what has me writing this today.