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Random encounter on the train

A few days ago I found myself sitting in the train after a series of events that had my brain all over the place. And even as I’m writing this, I’m still confused as to what had happened but I hope to get some clarity and maybe even be able to share my writings about it. But as I usually do when my brain is all over the place, I journal about it. And it had happened to be the first page of my new journal. I was so thrilled to share my experiences in this new journal, I shared it on my IG as well. Made a little boomerang, y’know. Anyway, I put down the date and start writing the date and the first two sentences of which the last one was literally “What the fuck?”, when an elderly lady asked if she could sit next to me as I had my bag on the seat next to me so I could write on the little desk from the seat in front of me. …

Hello Only me October, goodbye Stormy September

You think we’d learn our lesson whenever we say: oh, it can’t get any worse. We all know the Universe will show you that it can. And that’s exactly what September was for me. Despite it being my birthday month, it was fucking hell. Well, I guess hell would be stormy. And normally, I thrive through chaos. Because that’s just what I do. But this…Nah. We’ve had break ups and breakdowns, turn ups and hook ups, and many firsts. Anyway! It’s October now! The trees are shedding their leaves and I’m taking a page of their book by shedding my leaves as well. What does that mean? It means, I’m ready to drop habits that are not in alignment with the version I’m working on becoming to make room for new healthy habits, which I’ll share more about in another post. It’s time to focus on me. I have been very di(ck)stracted, while others have been focusing on them. Which is a pattern that needs to be broken. Especially, now that I’m newly single after …

I’m back! After 2 whole years…

Google, play “It’s about damn time”, by Lizzo because I’m back, baby! After 2 whole years. That’s right. We are gonna give it another shot. Filled with new experiences, dreams and a whole lotta anxiety. But we’re gonna do it anyway. So, what have I been up to? In all honesty, I’ve been up to whole lot and yet at the same time a whole lot of nothing. How does that work? You ask. Well, I can honestly say that I’ve experienced a lot and I was very busy. Because when the world shut down in 2020, it was exactly at that moment that I started my new job. And baby… It was a roller coaster from then on. I will not go into full detail about it, but a lot occurred after one another. Great things and just things that still give me full on panic attacks. Yet, a lot of the things that I experienced the past 2 years were not in alignment with my authentic self nor who I aspire to become. …

January in lettered tiles

January: looking back

To all those who experienced January as a long ass year, congratulations! You’ve made it to February! As you might have known, I had some goals set for last month. Phew, where to begin? 24 Books goal Well for starters, I didn’t manage to read two books last month. I did manage however to finish one, which I also wrote about. Currently reading book #2: The little black book by Otegha Uwagba. In all honesty, had it been in English, I’d finished long time gone. It’s not the most complicated or thickest book. I just have a harder time getting through books written in Dutch. But we’re still only in February! Can I still reach the 24 books by the end of 2019? We’ll see… How did it go with the working out, you ask? *Scratches head* I haven’t been on the mat for a week…Yes, today it has been a week. Which means I haven’t done yoga nor any other exercises for a week. Meaning, the muscles are shrinking bit by bit again. I will have …

Weekly report: 2-3

Welcome to the belated weekly report of week 2 and 3! As of week 1 I pledged to share the progress of my goals with you. Now that we finished week 3, let’s see how that has gone. Exercise 2-3 times per week With pride I can say, I nailed it and failed it! The goal for January is 2-3 times per week, the long-term goal for 2019 is every day. Hence I was hella proud of myself when in week 2 I marked Friday as day my fifth day of exercise. For the weekend I intended to d extended yoga sessions, but I got lazy. This laziness stretched itself along to week 3. I literally didn’t do one bit of exercising for week 3. And it was noticeable. At least for myself. I was less energetic and also a lot more on edge. Because to be frank: yoga has been doing great things for my mental state. Plus: a bitch is almost able to reach her toes again! Read 2 books this month One …

L E T T H A T S H I T G O

What will happen if I do this? Should I have said it differently? Why would he say that? And the most killing of all: what will people think? Welcome to the train of thought of an overthinker. As you might have noticed, I am a ridiculous overthinker. My head will do overtime in times when I don’t need it. It also causes me to hold on to a particular situation longer than is necessary, which gives me so much stress. This will be affect me physically, but even worse, also mentally. This photo is a perfect image of when I do let shit go. When I just live in the moment and my mind is at ease. Circumstances might not allow me to relax at all times, but I do know it’s necessary to make room to relax the mind and just LET THAT SHIT GO. For the overthinkers like me, who find themselves trapped by their own thoughts, try to make time for your mind to hush up for a minute and enjoy the …