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Random encounter on the train

A few days ago I found myself sitting in the train after a series of events that had my brain all over the place. And even as I’m writing this, I’m still confused as to what had happened but I hope to get some clarity and maybe even be able to share my writings about it.

But as I usually do when my brain is all over the place, I journal about it. And it had happened to be the first page of my new journal. I was so thrilled to share my experiences in this new journal, I shared it on my IG as well. Made a little boomerang, y’know.

Anyway, I put down the date and start writing the date and the first two sentences of which the last one was literally “What the fuck?”, when an elderly lady asked if she could sit next to me as I had my bag on the seat next to me so I could write on the little desk from the seat in front of me. Which, of course, she could! I immediately rushed to pack all my belongings so she could sit when she told me: “No, no, no. Don’t rush. I see you are writing, as a lover of the written word I can very much appreciate seeing other people write. Please take your time.”

She told me she raps and writes, but didn’t want to bore me with her talking if I wanted to write instead. Honestly, a part of me just wanted to turn my headphones and write because of how confused I was feeling. Plus, I am not a fan of talking to people next to me as they usually won’t stop and I just don’t care enough to listen to certain topics. Sounds harsh, but it’s the truth.

But this lady told me she raps and writes. I’m talking about a 75-year old lady with a soft croaking voice. I was intrigued. She told me she was known as the Rapgranny from Rotterdam and has been writing poetry for years, which she sometimes turns into spoken word to reach a more expansive audience. She wants to use her gift of words to make the world a better place for everyone. And that might sound cliché, but the topics she writes about actually have substance. Dare I say it, she is one of the few Dutch rappers that actually have substance.

Despite not knowing this lady for more than 25 minutes, I admitted that that’s actually what I have been wanting to do as well. I always wanted to help others who might feel like they’re alone in their struggle that they’re not by sharing whatever knowledge from my personal experiences. But I also admitted how terrified I am to share my personal experiences.

Yes, I write. Yes, I share. But half of the things I write and share are not very personal. I know that. And I am very well aware why I do it. But it’s also something I’m working on in therapy.

She looked at me and said: “You must continue to write.”

She then corrected herself: “Obviously, you must not do anything. But I can tell you’re a wonderful human being. In my 75 years of living I have gained quite the knowledge of people and you have a very radiant smile and your eyes are very bright. And you know that eyes are the windows to the soul.”

Well, my windows became quite foggy at that point as her words really touched me. I felt seen and understood. Especially by someone who shares the love and art of writing and has been living her passion for years.

She told me about so much and shared some of her written words with me. And all that in 30 minutes, maybe. I honestly hated that I had to get off. But I’m very grateful that I met her. I told her that as well and that I look forward to randomly encountering her again. To which she responded: “The next time we’ll see each other is when you’ll be on stage sharing your stories.”

I said I hope so. But she was sure of it. She believed in me, but now I needed to believe in myself.

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My name is Joelle Wiel. I'm a 31-yr young dreamchaser. I'm very energetic, passionate and ridiculously curious. Currently I'm working on my career as a transformational coach and want to inspire others by taking them along on my journey, which I share on joeyjoelle.com. My main focus is: personal development. But when I'm not working I enjoy savoring delicious cocktails, eating great food, shopping or reading a good book.

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